There are some days that I don´t think about her anymore and there are days when I still burst into tears when thoughts come rushing in. I don´t miss her any less but I guess life goes on and it is just a normal process. This year was full of so much ¨Stuff¨ I was almost glad that a little girl didn´t have to go through it. I believe it would have been harder for a little girl to loose her dad and she would have been a whole year older then what Logan was.
The thing about my little girly that makes me smile is that she is happy. She never got her heart broken, she never experienced phisical pain, she never shed a tear she just went from being totally depenndent on me to being totally dependent on God, what an amazing gift... she is truly the luckly one.
I love you Leyla, you are my little girl and will always be. No one will ever take you place!
Ps. the picture above has never been posted and it is the only picture that we have of her. Her little white hand in Alex´s... I can only imagine her very beautiful, she was totally pale like me with black hair like Alex and it was curly like her Colombian Gramas... would have been an interesting combination!
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Be still my beating heart. What a precious little hand. Thinking of you and praying for you tonight Kim. Sending lots of love and a big hug too. xoxo
thinking about you - and praying for you lots!
Oh Kim, this is such a beautiful post. Praying for you and Logan and Alex.
Kimberly, you stumbled upon my blog ELIJAH NATHANIEL DOUGLAS... not exactly sure when but I just figured out how to get on from my phone :) saw your comment. I hope we can figure out how to keep in touch....your baby girl would be 3 mine would be turning 3 in July.
oh girlie. wow. oh wow.
i hurt for you.
you are STRONG my dear. so STRONG. don't forget it.
Been thinking about you and Leyla this week as another friend just went through a similar experience. Her baby boy lived for five minutes after he was born...
My heart ached for her and then it ached for you as I remembered following your updates three years ago... I can't imagine that the pain ever goes away, just hangs around in the background sometimes... what hope there is in Jesus, that we will one day see these precious kids of ours...
Love you Kim.
Emily
Beautiful post. Tears are being shed over here. That is the most perfect little hand and it's such a precious picture.
You are an amazing woman, Kim, don't ever forget that!
Wow, what a beautiful little hand. Thanks for posting. And my heart aches for you with all you've had to walk through. Have you ever ready, "I'll carry you" by Angie Smith? Great book about a woman who's child died hours after birth but she knew for the last half of her pregnancy that the baby wouldn't survive.
Praying for a miracle with you and Alex too.
Hey Squirt,
Nice blog. You just look better and better as the years go by. When I think of how far you've come it is hard to realize you are the same person I knew growing up. (I mean this in the best way.) Nice to know our futures are not set in stone and that a change in us almost always means a change in our future. Take care. Michelle
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